Timbo .. Yeah I definitely know what you mean. It's so true. When you see yourself from an outside point of view, no matter what you see, anger, insecurity, everything becomes clearer and your perception and perspective can become easier to understand. This also works with the world in general, step off the map in your mind as if you're not a member of the planet, and you can easily see how problems can be solved.
I get those triggers. When you put pressure on yourself to be early, then you get frustrated because others have the audacity to be late, but when you realize, that you have the same right to have that audacity if you want, you're less frightened of that other person's power, thus you no longer feel hatred and anger towards them for having freedom you don't lol, because you DO!
My triggers are when people question me without reason, invade my space, patronize me...basically any form of unfair treatment, because for years I took all that bad treatment without standing up for myself, defending my space, and even convinced myself they were right... So once I found my freedom, I fight with all me strength to never lose it again and never let someone get on top of me again, but I guess I can relax now because I know I'm not in that environment anymore, don't depend upon anyone for my basic living needs to keep my alive, or to survive, and because I look after myself, I can trust others because my freedom, and life is not in THEIR hands to play with... this is something that can cause trauma from early so i guess even though i know I'm an adult tho, I still feel like a terrified child inside... and of course anger, is always covering up either fear or sadness. It's psychological fact I believe, even my acting teacher knew that and used it to teach us about emotions.
Therapy sounds SOOOO good. I'm more and more excited about clearing some issues the more you've told me about how it works and what happens DDDD
I get those triggers. When you put pressure on yourself to be early, then you get frustrated because others have the audacity to be late, but when you realize, that you have the same right to have that audacity if you want, you're less frightened of that other person's power, thus you no longer feel hatred and anger towards them for having freedom you don't lol, because you DO!
My triggers are when people question me without reason, invade my space, patronize me...basically any form of unfair treatment, because for years I took all that bad treatment without standing up for myself, defending my space, and even convinced myself they were right... So once I found my freedom, I fight with all me strength to never lose it again and never let someone get on top of me again, but I guess I can relax now because I know I'm not in that environment anymore, don't depend upon anyone for my basic living needs to keep my alive, or to survive, and because I look after myself, I can trust others because my freedom, and life is not in THEIR hands to play with... this is something that can cause trauma from early so i guess even though i know I'm an adult tho, I still feel like a terrified child inside... and of course anger, is always covering up either fear or sadness. It's psychological fact I believe, even my acting teacher knew that and used it to teach us about emotions.
Therapy sounds SOOOO good. I'm more and more excited about clearing some issues the more you've told me about how it works and what happens DDDD
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